holding0n2jesus's blog

Wow!  My life has been hectic busy lately!  A lot of you know I am very into music and have ALMOST (but not) auditioned for American Idol for the last 5 years.  There's reasons why God prevented me from going to the audition every single year.  I needed to learn to SURRENDER -- give it all to Him and learn to do it FOR Him, and not for me.

This is a breathtakingly beautiful song from Carrie Underwood's upcoming album.  It's called "Temporary Home":

Little boy, six years old,

A little too used to being alone.

Another new mom and dad,

Another school, another house

That will never be home.

When people ask him how he likes this place,

He looks up and says with a smile upon his face,

"This is my temporary home.  It's not where I belong.

Windows and rooms that I'm passing through.

This is just a stop on the way to where I'm going.

I'll try to make this is quick as possible..

Monday night, there was an accident at work and I suffered second and third degree burns on my arm and face.  Because of no insurance and complications with my job, I may end up having up to take my job to court to get my medical bills paid if I need further medical attention (I am going to see the Doctor this week).  

A few weeks ago, I posted a prayer request/praise report.  It was about my friend, Amber.  She was pronounced infertile and her and her husband have struggled having a baby.  She found out she was pregnant with TWINS! 

Well, I come with sad news.  She lost one of the babies.  She went in or an ultrasound.  One of the babies measured 11 weeks and was bouncing around in there like crazy.  The other baby only measured 8 weeks and had no heartbeat. 

Two days ago, I posted a praise report that a friend of mine who has been trying to have a baby.  She found out over a year ago that she is sterile, but just found out recently that her and her husband are expecting their first baby!!

A year or a year and a half ago, I posted a prayer request on the boards--back when I didn't come by as often.  It was for my friend, Amber, and her husband, Adam.  For a few years, they've been trying to have a baby.  After the first year of unsuccess, she went to the doctor.  She received very heartbreaking news that she was infertile.  At the time, she was working at a women's clinic.  She had to suffer through the pain of other women going in to have abortions.  Once, she told me that she actually went into the bathroom and cried, wondering that if the

Here is another song that I wrote, called "My Surrender"

I hope you guys don't mind.. but I'm going to start posting a few songs here that I have written... I hope to record some of these this fall.

This one is called "AFRAID"

Can you see it?  The storm you're in seems to be
So big that you can't find your way to the surface
Of the sea you're drowning in.
Can you hear Him?  Someone's crying out.  Can you hear Him?
It's time to come out of the shadows you're living in.
No use in living there anymore...

This song really touches me everytime I hear it.  The lyrics are so powerful, and definitely relate to me a lot...

Little girl, fourteen, flipping through a magazine,
Says she wants to look that way.
But her hair isn't straight, her body isn't fake,
And she's always felt overweight.
Little girl, fourteen, I wish that you could see
The beauty is within your heart.
And you were made with such care
Your skin, your body, and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are.

I posted a blog a week or so ago asking for prayer regarding my eating disorder because it had gotten a lot worse.

First of all, it's really no better right now.  However, I am moving to Oklahoma next month as most of you know.  I've started the process of trying to find an E.D. support group.  I've found two already in Oklahoma City, which is only 10 - 20 minutes from where I'll be.