Lena's blog

Christmas is about 3 months away, which means it's time to start packing shoe boxes. When I was in the orhanage I recieved a shoe box and now I feel like it's part of my job to help with whatever I can, this is my 7th year to pack a shoe box. I just love packing shoe boxes, it brings a smile on my face to see the difference we can make just by packing a shoe box! Last year my church packed 1,876 shoe boxes and this year we are trying to beat that. Every shoe box has a story!

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of

Is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream

I went to bed I was thinking about you
Ain't the same since I'm living without you
All the memories are getting colder
All the things that I wanna do over

Went to bed I was thinking about you
I wanna talk and laugh like we used to
When I see you in my dreams at night
It's so real but it's in my mind

And now
I guess
This is as good as it gets

Don't wake me
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
Don't wake me
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep enough

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over

[Chorus:]
Don't say goodbye
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?

On Monday my family and I went to the court to finalize one of my sisters adoption. After the Judge spoke he had some tears. I told my dad that and he said," He probably is happy for our family and because he doesn't see that many happy things during the day". It made me think: What if we didn't make mistakes? Would we have to shed tears? Would the world be in perfect peace? Like in one of the Jeremy's songs. I cannot wait till that day but until that day let's hold on to Him and Him alone.

 Home of the Brave

Through the feel of war they brave this day
How proud they stand, their unselfish way

Our soldiers bear what we cannot see
They assure our right to live life free

Each trained will face an unknown fate
Our support they need, don’t hesitate

Just imagine how this land would be
Without their courage - catastrophe