Aaron's Testimony

Here is my testimony that i wrote on 6-28-08

I would like to start off by having you read some lyrics to a song. For most of you, you have heard it but i would still like for you to read them and soak them in.

"Stained Glass Masquerade" - Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Thats pretty much how my life has been until the past few weeks. Every time I turn around..I am falling further and further away. A major event in my life would happen and I would come running back but then again..as time goes by..I start to drift away. In my life there has been major events thats changed my life.

1. My best friend was killed by her boyfriend.
2. A good friend of mine became paralyzed in a motorcycle accident.
3. I was hit by an underage drunk driver.

You would think after the first event..I would have held on but I didn't...and then again after the second one...but guess what...i didn't....After the last major event that I listed..I started to drift but all by the grace of God, I was able to grab the reaching hand of the Lord and He pulled me in, held me tight, and didn't let go.

Over the past few weeks I have noticed myself changing in two different ways....

Physically - One thing that has bugged me my whole life...is my weight...i am not happy with the person that i am...im overweight...but i am taking control and doing something about it....within the past 3 weeks or so..I have lost 20 lbs and still counting!! I am starting to feel a lot better about myself. I still have about another 45.5 lbs to go until i get to the point I want!!

Spiritually - Over the past few weeks I have been doing a lot of praying and thinking. Been looking for encouraging verses and I have also started reading a book called "When God Writes Your Love Story" Last night as I set the book down around 12:30am (6-24-08)...i decided to give my life back to God. I am done being that plastic person the song was talking about and the Stained Glass Masquerade  ( masquerade means "false outward show ). If you are also a plastic person that is still living with a stained glass masquerade..I hope and pray that you will just give it all to the Lord. Give him the pen to your life and let him write your story instead you trying to! One other thing I would like to add before ending this is that I happen to meet some amazing people. Yall are a blessings from God!! Thanks for the courage, the prayers, and kindness! You guys have been a big encouragement!

God Bless!
Aaron Hutsell