Blessed to Be Me!

Theres times when you wonder if god really heres you. On February 8th 2008 I had this thought. My Father whom we all call Poppa Bear had to be taken to mary Washingtn Hospital here in Va, He suffered a heart attack and Pyneumonia. My faith was tested at a new level. My life as I knew it was going to change weather I was ready or not God had his plan. The first week went by and it was day by day will he make it. I believed if it was gods plan he will survive. The doctors were wondering how much he might of lost of his function by Oxygen loss. I have a sister and brother and I thought a great relationship. Little did I know the test of our relationship and Our relationship was  about to almost end. I fought to keep My Power of attorney to make medical decisions from being taken away by my siblings feeling I was making the wrong decisions to not sign a DNR ( DO NOT RESSUCITATE). My father deserved the rite to live as long as god kept breath in his lungs. I felt so alone and prayed to make the rite decisions as the doctors wanted to do different procedures to help him I said yes even though they wern't sure if he would make it. It was 31 days in ICU and he finally moved his leg. After reading a book 90 Minute in heaven and a stronger faith now I was a very excited daughter to still have my Pop.He moved and finally tried to wake up when he heard my voice. I didnt care if people thought I was crazy but in the book 90 minutes in heaven by Done Piper when he died a preacher prayed very strongly over him and he felt a pusle after the ambulance people said there was nothing the preacher could do the man is dead. So As crazy as I thought I might seem I did that with my hand on My fathers heart. I went home that night and onestly gave him to god. The next couple of days my dad started to respond to us more. At this point Pop had a feeding tube in his stomach, and I had to decide to have a trake put in his throat to breath for him. He finally woke up and had to learn to talk , and walk again do to the musle loss. Dureing this time I've heard music helps heal and I know my dad could here us but couldnt respond to us. I brought a CD player in and put his favorite music in and the nurses played it almost non stop. The doctors said it was inspiring to hear the peacefull music. My dad Met Jeremy About 3 years ago at Kings fest and he has been very excited any chances to go see him.After several month and a heart bypass and defibulator put in my father  still struggles to funtion a normal life. He has COPD( Cronic Obstructive Pulmanary Desease)It is a desease of the lungs from Smoking.He some days doesnt have the push to do every day things. I have to keep the strength to keep him going and it is very stressfull after a year and a half later. I pray god gives me a thankfull heart for all I go trough and a forgiving attitude for the things my family and husband have to give up. Time alone is rare sinceI cant get much help for my dad here at home. I'm his daughter and I Owe him my Life He gave me his when I was young. God would want me to learn to have a thankfull heart! I struggle every day. My Father doesnt seem to understand his illness at times I'm struggling to have a understanding heart!! Please pray fro strenght for our family. Love in Christ. Angel Face To see more about pop Go to  www.caringbridge.com and put in johnshea it is a journal site I started for him last year after his heart attack.