Britt Nicole!

so on sunday i was having problems again, but this time, i gave into the temptation.. that was the first time in a year and a half that i had cut. and i didnt do it once either. there are at least 3 slashes on my wrist (as i type this!) from cutting with a pocket knife. (thank God it wasnt very big...or sharp)

so anyways.. i hadnt told anyone.. and i certainly wasnt planning on it... till i went to britt nicoles concert on monday... her song Safe has a line in it that says

oh no, my walls are gonna break

but she sang it at the concert like this:

YOUR WALLS ARE GONNA BREAK TONIGHT!

and it was like at the second, my walls came crashing down.. and there was suddenly nothing for me to hide behind, nothing for me to hold onto. i didnt have it under control, and i knew that. i wasnt fooling anyone.

so at signing, i told britt what had happened.. (i still hadnt told my dad... hadnt planned on it.. ) and she said

what were those walls?

i so i told her about how i had cut the night before, and she said can we pray for you. i said yes and she grabbed her drummer and they were praying w/ me for at least 2 mins. then britt said:

anytime the enemy comes to you, angie, i want you to speak the name of jesus, ok?

then she said, to night is going to be the night when youre free from this, if youll just let down you guard and let him come in. youre free from this tonight. do you feel free?

and i was like YES!!.

and you know what? i did. and i am.

so.. then i had to tell my dad, and it seems liek were going to have to do counseling.. but thats ok. i kinda wanted that in the first place.