Just Thought You'd be the One

Ok I have a song i wrote, well i call it a song but i don't have a set tune for this yet. first i'll post the song then the explaination.

Perfect hair, perfect eyes

He’s not for me, he’s not for me

He loves music just like me

He’s not for me, he’s not for me

Loves all people just the same

Respects his elders, honors God

He even knows me by my name

But he’s just not the one for me

Why oh why can’t he be

the one to grow old with me

Why must it be that he

Not be the one that is made for me

He loves his wife with all his heart

He’s the one for her

Will honor, cherish, and always protect her

Obviously not the one for me

Why did he chose her over me

Why can’t it be me in place of her

‘cus he’s not the one for me

Why oh why can’t he be

the one to grow old with me

Why must it be that he

Not be the one that is made for me

You know he talked to me today

And it got me thinking’ this way

But I’m not too sad ‘cus I know

That the one for me God already knows

He knows my likes, dislikes it’s true

And that someone will be better lookin’ too

‘cus for a reason I cannot now see

This guy wasn’t meant to be the one for me.

　Ok so I wrote this in the car. Amazingly wrote all of this in one night which nothing creative in my mind happens like this. Haha. Like the last line says, all ‘cus a guy I liked talked to me on this day. I talk to him occasionally. Yes he is married and yes I am a fool for still liking him but oh well. Sue me. Lol. Not the first time this has happened to me either... Ok so I liked this guy before he was engaged, same as the last guy. So once you are in that stage of liking someone, it is hard to turn your feelings off. Both times I didn’t know they were dating someone until just before their wedding. Ok the current guy is what sparked all this so I’ll just talk about him for now.

This guy “chris” talked to me today and I love when he talks to me ‘cus he’s such a kind person and when he asks how you are he really wants to know and not just a generic greeting, he really cares . So that’s pretty much the conversation ‘cus we really just passed each other today and didn’t have opportunity to have conversation. Anyways. After we “talked”, I started thinking I still really like him. Immediately the phrase that repeats here came to mind: he’s not the one for me. Then I heard in my mind (or perhaps my spirit) that for reasons I don’t know, he’s not the one for me. You really don’t know him that well, never did, and there’s something about him that you don’t know that is the reason he’s not for you. He is with her now but that isn’t the reason why you aren’t with him. He’s just not for you. Maybe there’s a trait or habit that would be unbearable or that your personalities would clash. Only God knows why, and you should leave it at the fact that he was not made for you. I feel that God is showing me that He shut the door on the situation for a reason. I know he did, but I mean for a reason like said above. ‘cus all morning I was thinking about “chris”, how he loves music like I do, he’s kind, and all the things I wrote about in the song (it was intended to be a song so I call it a song though I don’t know how I’ll fit the music with the words yet), but I know even if he wasn’t married it wouldn’t change things. There’s something that is a block between us.

Now knowing what I know, I need to move on and quit replaying the first time I met him or the times that I talked to him that I wanted to tell him how I felt about him. He’s with a great girl and is so happy and that’s all I could want for a friend is for them to be happy. So there. End of story…that is until I can write about the guy who is for me!!!